Memory lost is probably the most horrible thing in the whole world! I can not remember anything, it drives me horribly crazy. I have actually cried a time or two because of it.
They say that drugs and alcohol will kill brain cells and until recently we thought that once they were gone they were gone. BUT now they are saying that brain cells can be regrown. Which I have to say it is amazing what this human body can do. But they do say that for meth users it can take up to a year to get your full memory back. I only have a month and a half to go and if I still can’t remember anything after that I am suing someone LOL just kidding.
But seriously, I need something back, this is killing me.
give you examples from small: yesterday I forgot my lunch, I was horribly (<-that is my new favorite word, can you tell lol) hungry. Last night my aunt cooks chicken enchiladas (they were yummy yummy yummy!) and gave me some for lunch today, my family was teasing me that I shouldn’t even take them because I would just forget them. I swore up and down that I wouldn’t. BUT what did I go and do today? Yep you guessed it I forgot them. Ugggg it made me so mad! From the huge: I can't remember Kelli's first steps. I tried and tried to remember them. I know I was there. I know that she was almost 9 months old. I just can’t remember THEM! I can’t remember where she walked to or if she was already standing, or what. I don’t even remember her first word. This hurts my heart! Ill
But it’s not only this stuff…its thing that just happen to! Like my mom, aunt, grandma, a friend and I were all out to dinner. We are all talking. I guess my mom gets up to go to the bathroom and comes back. When we were in the movie theater our friend made mention to this. I did not remember at all that mom had even got up from the table. I asked mom many times that night, did you really go to the bathroom in the restaurant? She assured me that she had. This might not seem like a big deal to most people but to me I wanted to break down and cry.
I don’t know what is wrong and why I can’t remember anything, I am hoping that after my year of sobriety something’s start to come back and memory is the one thing that I am hoping for. I know that it will not happen over night. I just hope that it STARTS to happen. I don’t want to ever forget Kelli’s first day of kindergarten but if it keeps going like this I will. That is why I am so picture happy most the time. So at least I can remember some. If only I could remember where I put the pictures in the first place!