Monday, April 22, 2013


One meets his destiny often on the road one takes to avoid it-French Proverb


I read this quote this morning and it made me think.

I don’t think that anyone ever woke up one day and said “I’m going to become an addict, just for giggles and grins.” Well at least I never did. But we end up there somehow…how did it get this bad, how did we end up here? I am not sure, I still remember waking up in jail asking these questions.

But, with that said, I do believe that addiction led me to the life I am supposed to have. Addiction is not something to take lightly, addiction is death for us. BUT the good news is that it doesn’t have to be death! We can find a new way to live. We have hope in recovery each and every day.

If I wasn’t an addict, would my life be better? Looking back now I really don’t think so. It took a VERY rough road to get me where I am today but it was my destiny. I believe that every day. It is hard and sometimes I have to find the good in day to day life. But the fact is, if I did not go through my active addiction, I would not have all that I have today; My family, my daughter, my boyfriend, my friends, and a new baby on the way.
I am truly thankful for my life, past and present.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Staying clean and serene no matter what!

The only thing consistent in life is change. Everything in life may be going great and the plan that you have is right on schedule, but then life throws you a curveball and everything changes. The plans that you once have seem impossible and you have no idea what you are going to do now. 

So what do you do? Ok, so right here I do not have the answers, I wish I did, but life has thrown me a curveball. This right now is the worst possible time to happen. But the one thing that I do know is that I have a choice. I can keep fighting, facing this time and rising above it and figuring out (with the help of my higher power) what to do next or I can go back to my old way of life. This does at times seem easier, to just run and hide and hope like heck that everything comes together how it’s supposed to.

But let’s face the facts; this is not how life works. Life is not easy it does not work out on its own. It takes work on our part.

I have a great support system that, with them, I know I can get through it. I will pray. I will figure out where to go from here. And most importantly I will not give up hope.

I hope that everyone is doing great and life is going good. But if it’s not right now remember it’s not the end of the world. This too shall pass!

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Guarding our recovery

April 4
Guarding our recovery


“Remember that we... are ultimately responsible for our recovery and our decisions.”
Basic Text, p. 103
Most of us will face choices that challenge our recovery. If we find ourselves in extreme physical pain, for example, we will have to decide whether or not we will take medication. We will have to be very honest with ourselves about the severity of our pain, honest with our doctor about our addiction and our recovery, and honest with our sponsor. In the end, however, the decision is ours, for we are the ones who must live with the consequences.
Another common challenge is the choice of attending a party where alcohol will be served. Again, we should consider our own spiritual state. If someone who supports our recovery can attend the event with us, so much the better. However, if we don’t feel up to such a challenge, we should probably decline the invitation. Today, we know that preserving our recovery is more important than saving face.
All such decisions are tough ones, requiring not only our careful consideration but the guidance of our sponsor and complete surrender to a Higher Power. Using all of these resources, we make the best decision we can. Ultimately, however, the decision is ours. Today, we are responsible for our own recovery.
Just for today: When faced with a decision that may challenge my recovery, I will consult all the resources at my disposal before I make my choice.