Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Josh is back...

...and with a great message :)

I have a CHOICE on whether or not, and how I let others affect me.  I have no control over how they act or what they say; but I DO have freedom to CHOOSE how I react. 

It all starts with me, I'm an addict and no better/worse than anyone else(addict or not).  Especially when sharing with other addicts(even more so with newcomers), I must try my best to stay humble.  Lest I never forget where I came from, may I never have to go back. 

In sharing my experience, strength, and hope with others; the message of NA and recovery is rendered moot when I talk AT others and judge their choices.  In seeking my Higher Power's will for me, staying open-minded, and accumulated recovery (reading the literature daily), I'll better be able to share my message in a clear manner to others.  Thus, leaving it their decision to listen/not without feeling judged by me/others. 

When I get away from the Basics, my message becomes mixed(sometimes saturated) with MY will, not my Higher Power's, and doesn't carry the message of recovery that NA stands for.  As a member of Narcotics Anonymous, I have not just a responsibility, but also the blessing for every opportunity to share with others seeking recovery.  Not only does the message I share with others provide opportunity to give hope for the still suffering addict, but it strengthens my recovery when I practice the NA way and follow my Higher Power's will. 

I may not be able to share anything that will make another choose to attend NA or seek recovery for themselves; but I certainly can avoid saying things that may push a still suffering addict further away from seeking recovery.  My voice and actions are my most powerful tools.  I should stay conscious of these, and learn how my Higher Power guides me and wants me to use them. 

"My gratitude speaks, when I care, and when I share, with others the NA way." -gratitude speaks from NA

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


POA's being good or otherwise have no effects on addicts. We can have the best parents and be addicts or we can have the worst parents and be addicts.

My mother was an amazing mom and I am an addict. She did everything she could and yet I sat in prison.

Addiction is a cunning and baffling disease

Sorry I have not been keeping up on posting at all. This has been a busy summer full of many mixed emotions. I am not sure where to start.

·        I guess I can start with the loss of a great man. He was an amazing man with a smile for everyone and hugs out of this world. He was a main fixture in our NA home group and an inspiration to us all. He had many years clean and would help a fellow addict (or anyone for that matter) that needed it. He went through a lot in his last few months. His son was in a horrible accident and he was right by his side every moment. He knew that God would take care of it and looked to him daily. He also stayed sober though-out the whole thing. When many addicts would have used he gave us the inspiration and example. When I go to meetings and I am not able to see him anymore I get sad, but then in our meetings you can feel his spirit and know that he is there with us even if we cannot see him! There are so many good things I can say about him, and there are so many stories of the people that he has helped. I along with many others miss him and love him so much. Until we meet again.

·        Last month I (along with others from my home group) went to an NA camp-out called High on Life. It was so much fun. It was great to be surrounded by people in recovery. It was great to get away for a relaxing weekend as well. The stories and the fresh perspective were amazing to receive. Plus just seeing so many people have fun sober when everyone is used to doing stuff in an altered state of mind is amazing. I can’t wait for next year! I will be going back.

·        And last, I found out that a friend of mine passed away this morning. She was also in recovery and had been sober for 18 months. As most addicts know it does not matter how much clean time you have this disease can sneak up on any of us and take our lives. And that is what the disease of addiction did with my friend. In NA many people say “If I go back out I might never make it back in.” Death is a very real possibility for addicts who decide to use again. Jennifer was an amazing person and the mom to one of Kelli’s best friends. Her family will be in my prayers. She will be missed.

That’s all I have for now. I hope that everyone is doing well!