Yesterday was December 15th. Last year that was the day that I had to turn myself into Layfetta County Jail to await my trip to Vandalia Correction Center. That was the most horrible day of my life. I again had to leave my baby girl behind and go forward to something that I had no idea what was going to happen.
But that is all behind me now. It seems a century ago yet not so long ago as well. I never want to lose that feeling of how I felt when I was there. If I lose that I know I will lose again.
I am not ok with losing anything anymore.
This past week I have been called a bi**h more than once. That is ok with me, I don’t care. I don’t care what anyone thinks of me anymore. I have done wrong in the past, but I have been forgiving for all those wrongs. I will not make them again. My one and only concern is being a good mother. So the choices that I make and I don’t make are for her safety and well-being and that is all. If you don’t like the choices I make concerning her, well I’m sorry, but that’s the way it is.
I am no longer a people pleaser; I know longer care what others think besides Kelli. And sometimes as a parent you have to make a choice that our children do not like, but it is for their well-being. So with that said I am comfortable with the decisions I have made when it comes to Kelli’s and my life.