I feel like a slacker.

As far as this blog goes, I am the worlds worst blogger every! I have not been keeping up to date.

I feel like I am in chaos, trying to figure this new way of life out all over again. I was good where I was at, and then new things kept getting added to my life.

I understand that things have to change and I know that things can not be GREAT 24/7.  But can this world give a girl a break? Lol!

In all seriousness everything is going good. Last night I put Kelli's hair up in curlers for her costume today and then did her hair this morning so that she could have it ready when it was time for her school party.



 Tonight Kelli, S, and I are going to the town that his kids live in and taking all 3 (Kelli and his 2) trick or treating.

Tomorrow (hopefully) I will upload those pictures.

Everything is going good. Work is good. Life is good. And God is great! I have had a few rough spots but I talk to friends and my sponsor to get me though.

Although it can be very stressful I am happy with where I am.

I hope that everyone has a great Halloween.

It's My Birthday!

So today I am 27 years old.

It doesn't feel any different, but it feels better then a year ago!

I am excited for tonight! Haunted houses and Red Lobster!

I hope that everyone has a great weekend!

Each Day A New Beginning (Oct 20)

 

October 20, 2011

…you don’t get to choose how you’re going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you’re going to live. Now

-Joan Baez

How thrilling to contemplate that we can choose every attitude we have and every action we take. We have been gifted with full responsibility for our development. What will we try today? It’s our personal choice. How will we decide on a particular issue? Our options are only limited by our vision.

Every situation in life offers us a significant opportunity for making decision that will, of necessity, influence the remaining situations we encounter. Just as we are interdependent, needing and influencing one another in all instances that bring us together, likewise our decisions are never inviolate. Each is singly important; however, its impact is multiplied by the variety of other decisions triggered.

The choice is ours for living fully today, for taking advantage of all the opportunities that present themselves. Our personal growth, our emotional and spiritual development, are in our hands. God will provide us with the guidance, and the program offers us the tools. The decision to act is our, alone.

I will exercise my personal power. My choices determine my development.

Low Self-esteem?

Everyone (not just addicts) go though low self-esteem.

I read this daily devotional out of  Believing In Myself and I think that everyone who relate to it.

October 20

When I finally realized there was no such thing as enough money, sex, or things to make me happy, I was finally on my way.

-George S

Low self-esteem often reveals itself as a hollowness in the pit of the stomach and an emptiness in the heart. That hole hurts. Many have attempted to fill that void with “goodies” that don’t do anything but make a bad situation worse.

George certainly was one of those. He had all the usual qualifications for low self-esteem-a long training session as a youth that taught him he had no rights and that he would never amount to anything. He heard the message loud and clear. He was totally unworthy of love. So he set out in a frantic search for something-anything-to heal the hurt with in. his method was a nonstop scramble for more money, more sex, and more toys. He got plenty of everything he was after. Yet he found that none of them helped. When he finally discovered that the “give me more” trail always dead ends, he began looking somewhere else. Eventually his journey took him into his own heart. Where he found what he had been looking for.

Today, George has a different view. His face glows when he says, “I didn’t need to have more, I needed to be more. Now I have value and worth because of who I am. My happiness doesn’t depend on any outside condition or acquisition.” Nearly bursting with pride, he says, “I am me, I am okay, and that’s enough.”

Today I recognize my greediness as spiritual hunger.

Not sure how I feel about this?

Ok, so this morning I did not have a chance to read my devotionals. So I sit here at work reading them.

The first one I read was Devotions For Moms (actually it's the only one I have read so far today) and I am not sure how I feel about this one.

Usually after reading this devotional I feel pretty good, content, ok. But not today.

I would like your guys input if you want.

October 20

Choices

Who are those who fear the Lord? He will show them the path they should choose.

Psalm 25:12

There are currently many "just say no" campaigns against drugs, premarital sex, gangs, and other issues that children face in our society. Some years ago the president of the United States and the Speaker of the House took part in a news conference that kicked off a yearlong anti0drug advertising campaign. They said the campaign would attempt to "knock America upside the head." These ads would graphically illustrate the destructiveness of drugs and point out how vulnerable children are.

I was thankful that members of our government stood against the use of drugs, but I was concerned that we might spend the $195 million pledged to the campaign on symptoms and possibly fail to deal with the root issues, I believe that teaching our children how to make healthy and God-honoring choices regarding drugs, sex, and gangs has less to do with presenting lessons about the symptoms and more to do with encouraging children to make choices from an eternal perspective.

In his book Bold Love, Dan Allender states, "No one will leave an addiction or compulsion unless a competing passion is offered that gives a taste of what the soul was meant to enjoy. Only heaven with the beauty of restoration is a big enough passion to draw us away from the petty distractions and cheap addictions of this sorry world." Many children aren't motivated by negative consequences they doubt they'll ever experience. But they can be motivated by an understanding of the positive consequences of fellowship with God. The rewards-both now and eternally-are great.

I'm convinced that a large percentage of our focus as moms should be spent guiding our children toward God, whom we want to be the treasure of their hearts.

God,

There are many distractions and addictions that can cause our families great harm. Please help us point our children toward heaven and eternity, so that with your help they will turn from compulsions that would cause destruction.

Amen.

Additions

I added some new stuff to my store. Check it out.

For addicts: If you are looking for a bible that puts everything in plain English and that relates to you and you thoughts, I have added one to my store. It is called the Life Recovery Bible, my mom got me one when I was in prison and I absolutely love it! I actually have it in my bag so that I can read it later!

My store

First School Picture!

I know that I am posting a lot today, but I just had to share this.

Kelli got her first kindergarten pictures back!

 Isn't she so cute!