Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Perfectionism

I am back, sorry I have been gone. I have been trying to perfect my perfectionism. Ask me how well that worked out for me! Considered I haven’t posted in a couple of weeks and the one that I did post was what Josh sent me. It hasn’t worked out that well for me.

I was trying to get everything in my life perfect. I scheduled EVERYTHING. Here is a picture of my schedule.


Sunday
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
Saturday
5:00

Wake Up and get ready
Wake Up and get ready
Wake Up and get ready
Wake Up and get ready
Wake Up and get ready

6:00
Wake Up and get ready
Get Kelli Ready
Get Kelli Ready
Get Kelli Ready
Get Kelli Ready
Get Kelli Ready

7:00

Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave

8:00







9:00
Church






10:00







11:00







12:00

Work
Work
Work
Work
Work

1:00







2:00







3:00







4:00







5:00

Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave
Leave

6:00

Dinner
Dinner
Dinner
Bible
Time

7:00
Church
Kelli Time
Kelli Time
Church
Study
With
NA meeting
8:00
Bed
Bed
Bed
Bed
Bed
Debbie




The thing with trying to be perfect and doing everything perfect is that if something goes out of whack or you missing something in your schedule you feel like a failure.

I think that has to be the worse feeling in the world, for me anyways, is feeling that I have failed my family, friends, Kelli, and myself.

Thankfully I finished my 1st step with my sponsor and as I was reading my answers out loud I came to some conclusions:

·        Everything does not have to be perfect for it to be right

·        If one little thing goes wrong it is not the end of the world

·        I need to stop being so hard on myself

Just because something its perfect doesn’t mean that it isn’t good enough.

So I am going to do the best I can, AND if something goes wrong I am going to try my hardest not to freak out.


2 comments:

  1. Well. my advice is to ease up on yourself just a bit. Especially since, according to the schedule above, you only eat 3 times a week. On the plus side, your waistline must look great! LOL!

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  2. The days listed are the days I cook lol. The other days we are somewhere eating. Like thursday we eat at bible study, and then friday we eat at my friend Debbies. LOL

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