Well today is the last day of 2011, and I am so looking forward to 2012. I really think it will be the best of my life!
I hope you all have a great and safe New Years Eve!
Love you all!!!!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Playing Tooth Fairy!
I got to play tooth fairy monday night!
Kelli actually lost her tooth at 3 IN THE MORNING! How do I know that? Because she thought it would be a good idea to jump on mommy at 3 in the morning to tell me. It was so cute, but gave me a heartattack!
She is getting to big to fast!
I love that little one so much!
Kelli actually lost her tooth at 3 IN THE MORNING! How do I know that? Because she thought it would be a good idea to jump on mommy at 3 in the morning to tell me. It was so cute, but gave me a heartattack!
I love that little one so much!
Chiefs game!
I am not sure that I have said this before but I am a HUGE Kansas City Chiefs fan...like HUGE, I love my boys.
This year they were playing the Raiders on Christmas eve.
I have been a Chiefs fan since I was 5 years old and the game that I wanted to go to oh so very bad was a Chiefs/Raiders game!
Guess what?!?!? This year I went!
A friend of mine had tickets, he had to work on Christmas eve, so I got them!!!!!
SO Josh (yes the one that writes some post for me, WHICH HASN'T WROTE ONE FOR A WHILE!!! Hint Hint!!!!) and I headed to the lovely stadium Saturday and we had some great seats and some great times!
This year they were playing the Raiders on Christmas eve.
I have been a Chiefs fan since I was 5 years old and the game that I wanted to go to oh so very bad was a Chiefs/Raiders game!
Guess what?!?!? This year I went!
A friend of mine had tickets, he had to work on Christmas eve, so I got them!!!!!
SO Josh (yes the one that writes some post for me, WHICH HASN'T WROTE ONE FOR A WHILE!!! Hint Hint!!!!) and I headed to the lovely stadium Saturday and we had some great seats and some great times!
The Chiefs lost :( But I did have a great time! So it was worth it anyways, and they only lost by 3 in overtime!
An emotional christmas.
I hope that everyone had a great Christmas.
I know for me and my family it was emotional.
Last year I was in prison for Christmas so being out and just being with everyone was great.
I didn't take any pictures which now I am kicking myself, but I enjoyed just being with everyone.
Thankfully my ex-husband was kind enough to bring Kelli back to me Christmas eve so that I could wake up with her Christmas morning. That was the best present ever!
The one and only picture I did get was of Kelli on Santa's lap. He made a surprise stop at grandma's house before he headed back to the North Pole.
I know for me and my family it was emotional.
Last year I was in prison for Christmas so being out and just being with everyone was great.
I didn't take any pictures which now I am kicking myself, but I enjoyed just being with everyone.
Thankfully my ex-husband was kind enough to bring Kelli back to me Christmas eve so that I could wake up with her Christmas morning. That was the best present ever!
The one and only picture I did get was of Kelli on Santa's lap. He made a surprise stop at grandma's house before he headed back to the North Pole.
Isn't she so cute!!!!
Happy is what we make it.
Believing In Myself
December 28
If we wanted to be happy it would be easy; but we want to be happier than other people, which is always difficult, since we think them happier than they are. -Baron de La Brede et de Montesquieu
How am I doing? We automatically ask ourselves that question many times a day. Always, of course, in relation to other people. How else could we make a judgement? Am I smarter? Younger? More successful? Richer? Better looking? And how about them? Are they more self-confident than I am? Luckier? Happier?
Yet the only way we can draw a conclusion is to imagine that we know about "them." Usually, we do not. Oftentimes we tend to overrate and exaggerate the quality of other people's lives. Because we're keenly aware of our own inadequacies, we may accord "them" most of the advantages we think we lack. (No doubt it would bowl them over to realize how happy they didn't know they were!)
What a relief it is when we arrive at the state where our self-esteem depends not at all on "them"-either what they think of us or what we think of them. Sure, the comparison questions are intriguing and fun to wonder about. Just as ling as the answers don't count for anything but idle entertainment.
Comparing my insides with other people's outsides makes for some wrong conclusions.
December 28
If we wanted to be happy it would be easy; but we want to be happier than other people, which is always difficult, since we think them happier than they are. -Baron de La Brede et de Montesquieu
How am I doing? We automatically ask ourselves that question many times a day. Always, of course, in relation to other people. How else could we make a judgement? Am I smarter? Younger? More successful? Richer? Better looking? And how about them? Are they more self-confident than I am? Luckier? Happier?
Yet the only way we can draw a conclusion is to imagine that we know about "them." Usually, we do not. Oftentimes we tend to overrate and exaggerate the quality of other people's lives. Because we're keenly aware of our own inadequacies, we may accord "them" most of the advantages we think we lack. (No doubt it would bowl them over to realize how happy they didn't know they were!)
What a relief it is when we arrive at the state where our self-esteem depends not at all on "them"-either what they think of us or what we think of them. Sure, the comparison questions are intriguing and fun to wonder about. Just as ling as the answers don't count for anything but idle entertainment.
Comparing my insides with other people's outsides makes for some wrong conclusions.
I still struggle :(
So yesterday I was really sick. Throwing up all day at work and when I got home as well. I had a fever and no energy. It was horrible.
I know that I have wrote about this before but I still struggle with it now.
I have been sober for 14 months and when I am sick is the time I think about getting high the most.
I don't like it. I don't like that feeling.
"Normal" people don't have it. I just want to be "normal", but I will never be. The only difference between now and then is that now I have the tools to help me when I feel this way.
Now, I know of another way.
Everyone says that after you hit a year that things will get easier. I don't know if that is true or not. But I do know that it seems we have more tools to use. Maybe it is easier or maybe it's just we have put SO much work into this year that we don't want to let go over a simple sickness.
I am not such which. All I know is that I am glad that even though I had the urges to go get high, today I know that there is a better way. And for that I am thankful.
I know that I have wrote about this before but I still struggle with it now.
I have been sober for 14 months and when I am sick is the time I think about getting high the most.
I don't like it. I don't like that feeling.
"Normal" people don't have it. I just want to be "normal", but I will never be. The only difference between now and then is that now I have the tools to help me when I feel this way.
Now, I know of another way.
Everyone says that after you hit a year that things will get easier. I don't know if that is true or not. But I do know that it seems we have more tools to use. Maybe it is easier or maybe it's just we have put SO much work into this year that we don't want to let go over a simple sickness.
I am not such which. All I know is that I am glad that even though I had the urges to go get high, today I know that there is a better way. And for that I am thankful.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
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