Recovery doesn't happen all at once; it is an ongoing process, sometimes a struggle.

Sharing in meetings is sometimes a difficult thing for some to do. Should I sugar coat it to make it sound like life is happy, happy, happy, and everything is good? Here the past couple of weeks some of my friends in NA have been talking about the sharing in meetings. So when I read the Just For Today this morning, it put a lot of things into perspective.

“Sometimes the most positive message we can carry is that we are going through difficult times in our recovery and are staying clean in spite of them!”

You know that is true! When I am sitting in the meeting and I hear someone sharing about something they are going through, that I have been through in the past and could not imagine going through now that I am clean and staying clean, it gives me inspiration. Their message is hope. Hope that I too could stay clean through that situation. “If we are equipped with the tools of the program, we can walk through such turmoil and stay clean to tell the tale.”

NA’s message is hope. At least that’s what I get from NA. Hope that I can live a life worth living clean!

 

Just for today: I will honestly share both the good times and the difficult times of my recovery. I will remember that my experience in walking through adversity may benefit another member.

 

For the daily Just For Today: http://jftna.org/jft/

Coping with death

Death is something that is really hard for me to deal with, in all reality I usually just don’t deal with it at all.

There are many deaths in my life that I still have not dealt with and that I covered up with drugs. I no longer have that option. So now that I am clean how do I deal with them? How do I cope when someone so close to me passes away?

How do I come to terms with the possibility of losing someone that growing up and even now I never thought would “leave”?  How do I get over the guilt of not being around this person because of my own stupid issues?

How do I deal with the deaths in my past? The sick part is I have resentments against the people who have died. I think that is easier for me…to be mad at them instead of just dealing with it.

How do you just let someone go?

Life on life's terms.

Once you get clean off all drugs, how are you going to live your life?

Just because you sober up and decided to leave the drugs and alcohol alone does not mean that your life is going to get any better. Honestly it could just stay the same.

It’s really in how you want your life to be, it is up to you.

You can decided that your life is as miserable without drugs as it was with drugs and give up and keep living that way

OR

You could decide that your life WAS miserable with drugs and you refuse to let it be anything but happy without drugs.

Life is all in how you look at it. Living life on life’s terms is something every addict must learn. I am still learning this and sometimes even have a difficult time remembering all that I have learnt.

Life happens, that will not change. What will change are your attitude, your willingness, and your openness to face each situation.

Is it easy? By no means what so ever! But it is worth it.

My life has been way better than I ever imagined it could be. The friends and family relationships that I have now are more than I have ever had.

Just for today I am not trading that in for more drugs!